nnu

i hate you

I wish you knew

how hard it is,
to love again.

Did how know?
How much I loved, again and again?

I was always there for you,
but you became too distracted from me.

And here I am still willing to forgive.

It's not enough?
I'm fake to you?

Do you realize what you have done?
Where is your balance?
Which foot is in front of the other?
You don't know.
Hahaha.

I still forgive you, but remember love is a comprimise.

it's strange.

I don't think I miss things like other people do.
I like my life now, a lot.
I love the friends that fill my head with perfect memories.
Maybe I'm careless,
maybe I am selfish,
I think I can't hold on to the friends who cared-less and let go of me for their own selfish reasons.
I may have loved you once but there's this thing about me
I like anything discarded to stay that way, even if you discard me.

Changes in the wind-

the possibilities forgiveness brings.

the feeling.

it's so much easier to let go.

the feeling.

love and peace for all.

the feeling.

if i show you this can you pass it on?
the feeling.

it feels so good, so much better than before.

the feeling.

no one wants to hurt anymore.

the feeling.

so lets take these battle wounds off.

the feeling.

and shrug our shoulders to the sky.

the feeling.

and our hugs and smiles and happiness.

the feeling.

we can say it never died.

the feeling.

i can sense it all again.

the feeling.

good memories we had.

the feeling.

and the bad times we fell a victim.

the feeling.

we'll realize they weren't all that bad.

the feeling.

we'll test our trust.

the feeling.

and it's so hard.

the feeling.

but it's this lesson God teaches us.

the feeling.

you will be tested with this thing called time.

the feeling.

but if we can let go and hold on all at the same time.

the feeling.

we'll learn this most valuable lesson.

the feeling.


and all these feelings,
will become healing.

and we'll learn a little more about peace and love.

Sometimes...

I make up a little dream world in my head,
its an incredible place.

Magic and joy,
I dream, breathe and live.
Magic and joy.

the world is a magical, beautiful place

and I don't know how I keep forgetting it.

love
love
love

for some weird reason

bad things happen to me

and i think its my fault