If I post another emo-post

I give you permission to shoot me.
how annoying.
so in amidst of everything negative I just had a thought...
Life is good, and I'm happy.

you have to understand

i feel pain
in my heart
and i can't handle it anymore

i just don't get it.

I've gone 2 years being completely over him from the day we broke up.

Suddenly, all I can do is think about him.
What could have been?
Maybe I haven't been over it after all.

Also, I'm submitting a post-card to post-secret.
It's a good one.

fields and paths.

Opprotunities.
Decisions.


life
live
livin
dreamin
being
breathing


My heart flew away, and I'm going to go chase it.
Fuck it.

If you read my diary you would see.
My mind is possesed by one thing
person
lover
hater
mover
being
man

he flew away.

All this fish has to do is learn to fly.

someone...

anyone.. who can experience this dreamy world I live in.
I need you.
We are all connected. Yet, I am lost. A drift. Hello?
Are you there?

I guess I'll just float a while.

at this exact moment,

I sit back and chuckle,

it's such a silly life.

Were all so silly!

I have so many strange and unimportant posts.

Time to change that...

I realized today that I have never been ready to move on.
I'm still not ready yet,
a piece of me is so stuck with him.
I actually put our old photo out, viewable. It made me happy. I am reminded that it is a possibility that I can actually love someone. I haven't been able to do that since. This is why I know.

Only time can tell when I will get past this.